Test Results

It didn't go well. I left crying and it took all I had to actually send my scores to the schools I have applied to. I'm sure after the drudgery of viewing hundreds of applications, they will appreciate the good laugh my scores will induce.

I'm not being dramatic here either. My scores are below the range of accepted scores for the schools I wanted to attend. When one school says "We rarely accept anyone with a score below X", my score is below X.

It's really disappointing that I don't even have a good reason for why they are so bad. I studied hard for months. I feel like I really did what I reasonable could to prepare. I didn't feel overly nervous while taking it (other than knowing I was doing poorly).

For those of you who know me, know that I am a bit of an overachiever. I just want to be the best at everything I do. Is that too much to ask for? Wait, it is?! Well I refuse to accept that. I'm annoyed that I've never been a good test taker. My scores do not adequately portray my abilities. I'm sure everyone who scores poorly says this, but I really believe it! It's unfortunate that those scores are what I will be judged on.

So my confidence is down, along with my scores. I've shelled out hundreds for study books, practice tests, the actual test, and application fees. My confidence about getting into school is down. I suppose there is still a chance, but it's only that - a chance. I'll let you know in February what the schools say. (sigh)